Week 4 of Master Key and Haanel is starting to make some sense to me (there’s hope!!) The past few years of my life I’ve experienced stagnation. I set out to reach for a goal and I fall short, or the desire fizzles out, or I make an excuse, or the planets align in a way that keeps me from reaching my goal, or…or…or…you get the idea.
It’s frustrating to say the least. I never thought of myself as the person that left things undone… If I started, I finished. I’d rack my brain always trying to figure out why I didn’t follow through, why I didn’t complete what I started, why I didn’t do what I knew I needed to do. I’d attempt a course correction and try again. I’d find myself looking for the exact event, that moment in time where I took a turn and became “that” person. Needless to say… I still haven’t found that moment.
I realize that I may never find that precise moment. Thanks to Haanel’s quote below, Og Mandino’s Greatest Salesman Scroll # 1 and a clip from the documentary “What the bleep do we know” at least now I have a better understanding of if not “when”, or even “why” but “how” it happened!
During my Haanel readings this week, one line stands out for me.
Haanel 4:12 “…modern psychology tells us that when we start something and do not complete it, or make a resolution and do not keep it, we are forming the habit of failure – absolute, ignominious failure.”
“…forming the habit of failure…” doesn’t sound like anything I’d want to sign up for. Most of us don’t wake up and proclaim “today I am going to form Failure Habit x!” Instead, you do a thing that doesn’t go so well and maybe someone shows you compassion, and that compassion feels good. Your cells are fed peptides with the chemical equivalent of compassion (What the bleep…)… the next time you do a thing again – you get compassion and again – more compassion and again – more compassion…and…one day you realize that you’ve been doing the “thing” subconsciously and feeding off of the compassion…BOOM! new habit formed. Good, bad or indifferent, Subconscious doesn’t care (the thing + the feeling + repetition = habit)
While this does not eliminate my stagnation, it does the following; it tells me that whatever the initial incomplete event or resolution, it held some significance for me, the reaction that followed internally or externally fed me something I was missing so I continued the behavior.
Luckily I have not reached the point of no return. Mandino states in Scroll 1: “For it is another of nature’s laws that only a habit can subdue another habit.” By starting with small tasks that are easily complete then moving on to bigger task and completing them, I can subdue the habit of failure. I can find other more positive ways to feed my cells what they need. I can create the habit of success.
(In the near future…)
Just the other day I heard a noise. I went to investigate and what I found behind the curtain made me grateful for the ability to learn and grow. In the room are my old companions Stagnation and Failure whimpering in the corner.
I walk across the room and open the exit door. I point to it and show them the way. I watch them walk out the door but I don’t linger. Instead I close the door. I leave the room and allow the curtain to close behind me. As I walk away, I smile and acknowledge I have returned and I’ve got work to do.